Humility or Humiliation

I suffer with pride.  It seems I always have.  And in that struggle lay my inability to reconcile the virtue of humility against the continual sting of humiliation.   While I desire to be humble before God and His will for my life,  it seems the whole world wants to kick me in the gut and keep putting me down.  Why is that?  Is there a balance between humility and humiliation?  O Lord, will you teach me, protect me?  I am so tired of the low blows.

Psalms

I am impressed with the Psalms.  King David is so real, so human.  He repeatedly praises the Lord in such eloquent language and immediately confesses his sin and need for the Lord to have mercy.  I feel that way so often.  I seem to always be praying praises and asking for mercy in the same breath.

David asked the Lord to write His instructions on the heart, that they might keep him pure.  I pray the same.  O Lord, please, write your instructions on my heart.  Do not let me forget you in the course of the day.  Do not let the voices and noise of this sinful world shout louder than you.  Let me her you in the midst of the troubles of the day and praise your holy name.  Keep me from temptation, keep me from sinning in my heart.

It seems so easy to be close to the Jesus in the quiet time, yet so quickly I succumb to the emotions of the day.  Typically, those are tainted by pride.  Maybe today the grace of humility will be with me without harm.