Humility or Humiliation

I suffer with pride.  It seems I always have.  And in that struggle lay my inability to reconcile the virtue of humility against the continual sting of humiliation.   While I desire to be humble before God and His will for my life,  it seems the whole world wants to kick me in the gut and keep putting me down.  Why is that?  Is there a balance between humility and humiliation?  O Lord, will you teach me, protect me?  I am so tired of the low blows.